Well, I have been keeping a journal in a notebook here a home but I hate writing by hand. So I figured this would be a little easier for me since I can type much faster than I can write and my hand doesn't get tired. =)
I am going to send links of this page to my immediate family. If you think anyone else in our family would like to read it, please ask me before sending them the link as this is pretty private stuff to me.
Well, I hope you all get some good information off of this page. Maybe it will help you understand the garbage I have to deal with everyday. Maybe it will help you understand the stresses that Loyda and I are under on a daily basis. And my hope is that it will help all of you, Loyda included, why sometimes I want to be left alone to just sit and "veg out".
I started seeing a psychologist that is going to submit me to what they call "Cognitive Behavioral Therapy". Basically it teaches me how to calm myself when the anxiety starts. So, how do we get the anxiety to start you say? Well, he drags me out into public places crowded with people. Something I am not looking forward to at all but I think it is the only solution. If I become an butt during these times, please forgive me.
As it is now, I live day to day. Some days are OK, some days are not. It all depends on the stresses that occured that day. If a problem arises, I have a heck of a time to let it go. I will sit and dwell on it until I am sick with panic or fear. Which then usually sends me into a fit of depression and self-assassination of character for submitting my lovely wife to such crap.
Peace for now. I will write later.
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This is a TEST COMMENT left by Ðave. =)
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